Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
darling hush. let’s be still. keep close - stick your skin to my skin
let’s not speak a word. shush. darling.
are we still together?
why are we still fighting in the dark?
do you even hear me?
I love you.
shush. MY darling. you’d awaken everybody.
let’s be still. under the covers let’s be still.
xx signed off at 3:26 AM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Goodness!
I know... I slacked off again..
I promise to write something more relevant today. Ive been consumed by school... TESTS! TESTS! its driving me crazy!
still sleepy, Rika
xx signed off at 2:27 PM
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Narcissistic
because I'm narcissistic...
[] I am a good girl. Really! I don’t do anything out of the norm. [] Alright. I guess I’m lying since I am pretty spontaneous. [] I have big dreams and I plan to achieve them all. [] Starting from climbing Mt. Everest and finding a cure for cancer…. [] But really. I think when you dream. DREAM BIG. [] I am a model... [] I love the camera and it loves me back. [] I like to laugh and smile a LOT.... [] I love shoes. [] I have almost 100 pairs. [] My closet is full of clothes and jeans. [] But I only have one favorite pair of jeans. They’re comfy. [] I like to buy purses, especially pink ones. They just look awesome with a cute outfit. [] I love POLO shirts. I wear them all the time. If you want to give me a present for Christmas, give me one of those, I will be happy. [] I am chocoholic. [] I consume it everyday. Its my addiction and my stress reliever. It makes me happy. [] And yeah, you can bribe me with chocolates. [] When I’m sad and gloomy, I eat French fries with milkshake. [] And I do eat my French fries with Mayo. (yummy!) [] I am Filipina. [] Which explains why I have tan skin and dark hair and eyes. [] I know how to dance “tinikling” and other Filipino dances. [] My life is a big SOAP Opera. [] Nah… I’m kidding. I’m just trying to see if you’re paying attention. [] But it is a movie in a making. [] I think guys in uniforms are hot. =P [] It just looks really masculine for me. [] I contradict myself most of the time. [] Well… ALL THE TIME. [] I am vain. [] See the background I got here…. Lolz.. I just love myself. Narcissistic, huh? [] I love getting mail and personalized comments and messages. [] It makes me smile. [] I am attracted to smart guys. [] So pretend like you’re one…. [] And no, I will not stoop down in being a whore. Not once... not twice.. NEVER!!!! [] I am bilingual. [] Love my heritage. [] I love dogs. [] I have one. [] His name is Buckeye. [] He is my Baby boy… So love him or else… u don’t have a chance with me. =P [] I will cry if anything happens to him. [] I’ve dated other ethnic groups, but not a Filipino. [] Strange…….. [] But I think Filipinos are the best lovers… They just know how to treat a girl right. [] I have pride. [] Therefore, I’m stubborn. [] I pick up fights just because…. guys look cute when they’re all flustered and frustrated…. [] I think the best times in a relationship are spent silently, or alone with each other. [] Its good to talk about feelings and thoughts. [] I think meaningful conversations are better than sex. [] I’ve been in-love twice. [] Both of the guys broke my heart. [] But I’m better off without them… [] I write poetries and I sketch. [] I tend to create good ones when I’m depressed and gloomy. [] I plan to be successful someday…. [] The sun kissed me. I am tan and I love it. [] I have a thing for pearls. I love them. [] I am scared of anything that crawls. I don’t like snakes and worms. [] But I do love babies. They’re adorable. [] I like to argue and go on debates. [] I did Student Congress and that explains why I am opinionated about politics. [] I rant all the time. [] About almost NOTHING. [] Reading is one hobby that I like to do… [] I get what I want most of the time. [] I have a way with words. [] Yeah… don’t even argue. I get my way. [] I’m a brat. [] My favorite person is Ji-Sun. [] She’s my bestfriend and I love her. She’s really amazing and smart. [] I don’t have any talent. [] I consider myself as average. I know bits of everything. [] I have an addiction for anything that is pink and bright. [] My favorite shoes will be my rainbow sandals. [] Oh! How I love wearing them. [] My sisters are Rania, Erika, Taki and Gheeanne. [] I am the middle child. [] Rania is younger than me. She’s crazy. But I still love her. [] Erika is my stepsister. We get along… (Most of the time). [] Gheeanne is the oldest. She already moved out. Living her life and spending most of it with Carmike, her boyfriend. [] Taki is spending her life with Megan. Im happy for her...…. [] My mom is the best. She can do everything. [] By the way, I strive for perfection. [] Yeah… Yeah.. Nothing is perfect. [] But anything can be almost perfect, right? [] That’s where I get my drive everyday. It forces me to be better. [] I look at life as a way to improve myself. [] Improving to achieve happiness and contentment. [] Yupp! I want to be happy. That is the ultimate goal. [] I am a hopeless romantic. [] I consider my life as a big arena. [] I like to experiment with words. [] There is nothing better than sounding smart and educated. [] I don’t use profanity… Well.. unless I’m mad. [] Hint Hint Hint. [] I like sit down dinners. Its just more romantic and special. [] I love orchids. Purple ones are the best. [] I’ve been branded as “punkette”, although I don’t consider myself as one. [] I am attending North Carolina State University [] I am majoring in Civil Engineering. [] I have cool friends... we get drunk and act crazy all the time. [] I like to think that im taking care of somebody... so please.. just let me "think" so. [] I have finally met my prince charming... ANDY [] He completes my fairy tale ending [] Yes, I am very much in-love with him.... [] My heart belongs to him [] I am Andy... I am his. [] I’m strong. [] I AM RIKA. [] And I am ready
vain Rika
xx signed off at 3:31 AM
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Old friends... they come & go.
Quite a strange day for friends...
♥ talked to Ji-Sun ♥ talked to Paul
strange, eh?! they both called me today and its ironic because I was just telling Andy how I don't seem to have any friends. I ought to keep track of my friends and build a better relationship with them... and there they are appearing out of nowhere! And so I'm going to meet with Paul tomorrow after class - we spent an hour talking tonight. There are just a lot of things that are going on with our lives and I needed to catch up with him for old times sake.
Got a call from my S-Dad yesterday and YUPP! he confirmed that Ricky did get married and that she is expecting their child on August. I just hope that he's happy. I mean eventhough he's my ex-bf, I wish him the happiness. Everybody deserves to be happy. As for Andy and I... I can never be happier. Everything is dandy and we're both still in LALA land.... I am just so excited of what is there to come. I am excited of our life together. He called Mom yesterday and told me just how much she adores me... it makes me feel soooo good to hear about it! I get happy knowing that everything just seems to be better this time around. :)
Judged debate the entire day Saturday at Cary Academy with Andy. Hardly saw him the entire day since I was judging PF(Public Forum) the entire day, back to back.. Flight A and Flight B. I just miss debate so much. It gives me happiness being there, watching them formulate their arguments. Poor Andy got stuck on the Individual Events (IE) the entire day. We'll be going home to Fayetteville this weekend at my parent's house so we can judge debate again at Smith.... the thrill.. i miss it.
On another note, just got our tickets for the Ringling Brothers Circus this coming Friday. We'd have tons of fun! Its our first circus together. Its been years since the last time I saw them and I watched it along with my parents ... But I AM SOOO EXCITED and I am sure I'd exhaust myself taking pictures. Anyways... Its about 3:25 am.. I ought to get some sleep.. I have to wake up in 3 hours....
GOODNIGHT WORLD!!!!
almost falling asleep Rika
xx signed off at 3:05 AM
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I am such a bitch.
as usual... Its been days since my last post. and for some ODD reason, I always write in the wee hours of the morning when I should be happily sleeping under the warm blankets - in vain, I am still wide awake.
I've been feeling weird lately, being apart from Andy during the weekday has taken a big strain in our relationship and I know its quite unfair for me to ask for more, when the poor guy is obviously trying his hardest to be there. :: sigh :: My worries... My worries... I want to keep them all in bay.
Its going to be another long day tomorrow... Once again, its one of those days when all of my classes seem to be crammed in one session... During these days, mostly Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays - my day has been such a blur. It goes by without me even noticing it. I am yet to have a proper diet lately. The different times when I can finally sit down and eat, has been close to none, nada, zit or ZERO... I suppose a big part of that has to do with me not wanting to eat without Andy there - so I busy myself with cross-stitching - which is now by the way halfway done.
I hate myself lately. I've been such a bitch to him, and I know that he doesn't deserve it. Such a wonderful guy like him shouldn't be put in hell. and I seem to do just that.... :: kicks myself ::
Yesterday, we had such a great conversation on the phone... And I felt so guilty. Just with how he says things to me... how he tells me how much he misses me, how much he adores me and for him to feel like no matter what happens he'll be ready for it - that in the end he will still love me - just breaks my heart in milliion BILLION pieces. Laying here on my bed at 1:30 in the morning, waiting to doze off just makes me miss him more.
Tabaching-ching... I MISS AND LOVE YOU.
hugging mr wolf Rika
xx signed off at 1:16 AM
Friday, January 25, 2008
only.
rolling winds blue background only space only.
palisade on both sides. running from zero to..... only hazy. only.
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Yes... I took the picture.
may your mind and your heart be less hazy R.
xx signed off at 12:27 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
almost drained....
Recap this week thus far:
Spent the afternoon with Patricia yesterday... We decided to go to Shabashabu for lunch seeing that I have one late class and she had the time to hang out . It's actually nice to go to lunch with her and just hang out. Its always great to have a meal accompanied by great conversation.
Won't go into too much details... Patricia already did that... check out her blog at Patricia's Blog
she insisted......
Its been such a LONG day tho`.... I felt like its dragged on and on and on.... but I know just what to do---- a nice great sleep is just the trick to replenish my oh so poor self.
Weekend is almost here and I have to say I am ready for it. I need to catch up with so much school work that its not even funny. I just want to be able to get through tomorrow and everything should be dandy.
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There are so many things that are looming in my mind right now. This week was full of surprises --- good news, bad news --- all the same, by the end of the day or maybe the next these so called "news" has an uncanny way of being forgotten. Another thought, friendships transpire in the weirdest of circumstances.
